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The Twelve Disciples
Posted on May 2, 2020 at 12:09 PM |
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LEARNING TO MASTER
THE TWELVE CHARACTERISTICS OF THE HUMAN MIND a.k.a The
Twelve Disciples. by Neville Goddard
"And
when he had called unto him his twelve disciples, he gave them power against
unclean spirits, to cast them out, and to heal all manner of sickness and all
manner of disease." Matt.10:1. The
twelve disciples represent the twelve qualities of mind which can be controlled
and disciplined by man. If disciplined they will at all times obey the command
of the one who has disciplined them. These
twelve qualities in man are potentials of every mind. Undisciplined their
actions resemble more the actions of a mob than they do of a trained and
disciplined army. All the storms and confusions that engulf man can be traced
directly to these twelve ill-related characteristics of the human mind in its
present slumbering state. Until they are awakened and disciplined they will
permit every rumor and sensuous emotion to move them. When
these twelve are disciplined and brought under control the one who accomplishes
this control will say to them, "Hereafter I call you not slaves but
friends." He knows that from that moment on each acquired disciplined
attribute of mind will befriend and protect him. The
names of the twelve qualities reveal their natures. These names are not given
to them until they are called to discipleship. They are: Simon, who was later
surnamed Peter, Andrew, James, John, Philip, Bartholomew, Thomas, Matthew,
James the son of Alphaeus, Thaddaeus, Simon the Canaanite, and Judas. THE FIRST
DISCIPLE – SIMON/PETER or The Foundation Stone: The
first quality to be called and disciplined is Simon or the attribute of
hearing. This faculty, when lifted to the level of a disciple, permits only
such impressions to reach consciousness as those which his hearing has
commanded him to let enter. No matter what the wisdom of man might suggest or
the evidence of his senses convey, if such suggestions and ideas are not in
keeping with that which he hears, he remains unmoved. This one has been
instructed by his Lord and made to understand that every suggestion he permits
to pass his gate will, on reaching his Lord and Master (his consciousness),
leave its impression there, which impression must in time become an expression. The
instruction to Simon is that he should permit only dignified and honorable
visitors or impressions to enter the house (consciousness) of his Lord. No
mistake can be covered up or hidden from his Master, for every expression of
life tells his Lord whom he consciously or unconsciously entertained. When
Simon by his works proves himself to be a true and faithful disciple then he
receives the surname of Peter or the rock, the unmoved disciple, the one who
cannot be bribed or coerced by any visitor. He is called by his Lord Simon
Peter, the one who faithfully hears the commands of his Lord and besides which
commands he hears not. It
is this Simon Peter who discovers the I AM to be Christ, and for his discovery
is given the keys to heaven, and is made the foundation stone upon which the
Temple of God rests. Buildings must have firm foundations and only the
disciplined hearing can, on learning that the I AM is Christ, remain firm and
unmoved in the knowledge that I AM Christ and beside ME there is no savior. THE SECOND
DISCIPLE – ANDREW or Courage: The
second quality to be called to discipleship is Andrew or courage. As the first
quality, faith in oneself, is developed it automatically calls into being its
brother, courage. Faith in oneself, which asks no man's help, but quietly and
alone appropriates the consciousness of the quality desired, and in spite of
reason, or the evidence of his senses to the contrary, continues faithfully and
patiently waiting in the knowledge that his unseen claim, if sustained; must be
realized. Such faith develops a courage and strength of character, that are
beyond the wildest dreams of the undisciplined man; whose faith is in things
seen. The
faith of the undisciplined man cannot really be called faith. For if the
armies, medicines or wisdom of man in which his faith is placed be taken from
him, his faith and courage go with it. But from the disciplined one the whole
world could be taken and yet he would remain faithful in the knowledge that the
state of consciousness in which he abides must in due season embody itself.
This courage is Peter's brother Andrew, the disciple, who knows what it is to
dare, to do and to be silent. THE THIRD AND
FOURTH DISCIPLES - JAMES & JOHN or Justice and Love: The
next two who are called are also related. These are the brothers, James and
John, James the just, the righteous judge, and his brother John, the beloved.
Justice to be wise must be administered with love, ever turning the other cheek
and at all times returning good for evil, love for hate, nonviolence for
violence. The
disciple James, symbol of a disciplined judgment, must when raised to the high
office of a supreme judge be blindfolded that he may not be influenced by the
flesh nor judge after the appearances of being. Disciplined judgment is
administered by one who is not influenced by appearances. The one who has
called these brothers to discipleship continues faithful to his command to hear
only that which he has been commanded to hear, namely, the Good. The man who
has this quality of his mind disciplined is incapable of hearing and accepting
as true anything either of himself or another which does not on the hearing
fill his heart with love. These
two disciples or aspects of the mind are one and inseparable when awakened.
Such a disciplined one forgives all men for being that which they are. He knows
as a wise judge that every man perfectly expresses that which he is, as man,
conscious of being. He knows that upon the changeless foundation of
consciousness all manifestation rests, that changes of expression can be
brought about only through changes of consciousness. With
neither condemnation nor criticism these disciplined qualities of the mind
permit everyone to be that which he is. However, although allowing this perfect
freedom of choice to all, they are nevertheless ever watchful to see that they
themselves prophesy and do both for others and themselves only such things
which when expressed glorify, dignify and give joy to the expresser. THE FIFTH
DISCIPLE – PHILLIP or Consciousness / Awareness: The
fifth quality called to discipleship is Philip. This one asked to be shown the
Father. The awakened man knows that the Father is the state of consciousness in
which man dwells, and that this state or Father can be seen only as it is expressed.
He knows himself to be the perfect likeness or image of that consciousness with
which he is identified. So he declares, "No man has at any time seen my
Father, but I, the son, who dwelleth in his bosom have revealed him; therefore,
when you see me, the son, you see my Father, for I come to bear witness of my
Father." I and my Father, consciousness and its expression, God and man,
are one. This
aspect of the mind when disciplined persists until ideas, ambitions and desires
become embodied realities. This is the quality which states "Yet in my
flesh shall I see God." It knows how to make the word flesh, how to give
form to the formless. THE SIXTH
DISCIPLE – BARTHOLOMEW or Imagination / Visionary: The
sixth disciple is called Bartholomew. This quality is the imaginative faculty,
which quality of the mind when once awake distinguishes one from the masses. An
awakened imagination places the one so awakened head and shoulders above the
average man, giving him the appearance of a beacon light in a world of
darkness. No quality so separates man from man as does the disciplined
imagination. This I is the separation of the wheat from the chaff. Those ~ who
have given most to society are our artists, scientists, inventors and others
with vivid imaginations. Should
a survey be made to determine the reason why so many seemingly educated men and
women fail in their after-college years or should it be made to determine the
reason for the different earning powers of the masses, there would be no doubt
but that imagination played the important part. Such a survey would show that
it is imagination which makes one a leader while the lack of it makes one a
follower. Instead
of developing the imagination of man, our educational system oftentimes stifles
it by attempting to put into the mind of man the wisdom he seeks. It forces him
to memorize a number of text books which, all too soon, are disproved by later
text books. Education is not accomplished by putting something into man; its
purpose is to draw out of man the wisdom which is latent within him. May the
reader call Bartholomew to discipleship, for only as this quality is raised to
discipleship will you have the capacity to conceive ideas that will lift you
beyond the limitations of man. THE SEVENTH
DISCIPLE – THOMAS or Denial of Falsehood: The
seventh is called Thomas. This disciplined quality doubts or denies every rumor
and suggestion that are not in harmony with that which Simon Peter has been
commanded to let enter. The man who is conscious of being healthy (not because
of inherited health, diets or climate, but because he is awakened and knows the
state of consciousness in which he lives) will, in spite of the conditions of
the world, continue to express health. He could hear through the press, radio
and wise men of the world that a plague was sweeping the earth and yet he would
remain unmoved and unimpressed. Thomas, the doubter when disciplined would deny
that sickness or anything else which was not in sympathy with the consciousness
to which he belonged had any power to affect him. This
quality of denial when disciplined protects man from receiving impressions that
are not in harmony with his nature. He adopts an attitude of total indifference
to all suggestions that are foreign to that which he desires to express.
Disciplined denial is not a fight or a struggle but total indifference. THE EIGHTH
DISCIPLE – MATTHEW or the Gift of God: Matthew,
the eighth, is the gift of God. This quality of the mind reveals man's desires
as gifts of God. The man who has called this disciple into being knows that
every desire of his heart is a gift from heaven and that it contains both the
power and the plan of its self-expression. Such a man never questions the
manner of its expression. He knows that the plan of expression is never
revealed to man for God's ways are past finding out. He fully accepts his
desires as gifts already received and goes his way in peace confident that they
shall appear. THE NINTH
DISCIPLE - JAMES (son of Alphaeus) or Discernment: The
ninth disciple is called James the son of Alphaeus. This is the quality of
discernment. A clear and ordered mind is the voice which calls this disciple
into being. This faculty perceives that which is not revealed to the eye of
man. This disciple judges not from appearances for it has the capacity to
function in the realm of causes and so is never misled by appearances. Clairvoyance
is the faculty which is awakened when this quality is developed and
disciplined, not the clairvoyance of the mediumistic seance rooms, but the true
clairvoyance or clear seeing of the mystic. That is, this aspect of the mind
has the capacity to interpret that which is seen. Discernment or the capacity
to diagnose is the quality of James the son of Alphaeus. THE TENTH
DISCIPLE – THADDAEUS or Praise and Thanksgiving: Thaddaeus,
the tenth, is the disciple of praise, a quality in which the undisciplined man
is woefully lacking. When this quality of praise and thanksgiving is awake
within man, he walks with the words, "Thank you, Father," ever on his
lips. He knows that his thanks for things not seen opens the windows of heaven
and permits gifts beyond his capacity to receive to be poured upon him. The
man who is not thankful for things received is not likely to be the recipient
of many gifts from the same source. Until this quality of the mind is
disciplined, man will not see the desert blossom as the rose. Praise and
thanksgiving are to the invisible gifts of God (one's desires) what rain and
sun are to the unseen seeds in the bosom of the earth. THE ELEVENTH
DISCIPLE - SIMON (the Canaanite) or Hearer of Good News: The
eleventh quality called is Simon of Canaan. A good key phrase for this disciple
is "Hearing good news." Simon of Canaan, or Simon from the land of
milk and honey, when called to discipleship, is proof that the one who calls
this faculty into being has become conscious of the abundant life. He can say
with the Psalmist David, "Thou preparest a table before me in the presence
of mine enemies; thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over."
This disciplined aspect of the mind is incapable of hearing anything other than
good news and so is well qualified to preach the Gospel or Good-spell. THE TWELTH
DISCIPLE – JUDAS – Birth of the New Man: The
twelfth and last of the disciplined qualities of the mind is called Judas. When
this quality is awake man knows that he must die to that which he is before he
can become that which he desires to be. So it is said of this disciple that he
committed suicide, which is the mystic's way of telling the initiated that
Judas ; the disciplined aspect of detachment. This one knows that his I AM or
consciousness is his savior, so he lets all other saviors go. This quality when
disciplined gives one the strength to let go. The
man who has called Judas into being has learned how to take his attention away
from problems or limitations and to place it upon that which is the solution or
savior. "Except ye be born again you cannot in anywise enter the Kingdom
of Heaven." "No greater love hath man than this, that he give his
life for a friend." When man realizes that the quality desired, if
realized, would save and befriend him, he willingly gives up his life (present
conception of himself) for his friend by detaching his consciousness from that
which he is conscious of being and assuming the consciousness of that which he
desires to be. Judas,
the one whom the world in its ignorance has blackened, will when man awakes
from his undisciplined state, be placed on high for God is love and no greater
love has a man than this that he lay down his life for a friend. Until man lets
go of that which he is now conscious of being, he will not become that which he
desires to be; and Judas is the one who accomplishes this through suicide or
detachment. These
are the twelve qualities which were given to man in the foundation of the
world. Man's duty is to raise them to the level of discipleship. When this is
accomplished man will say, "I have finished the work which thou gavest me
to do. I have glorified thee on earth and now, O Father, glorify thou me with
thine Own self with the glory which I had with thee before the world was." Be
at PEACE God is Laughing. |
THE ACTION BETWEEN BRAIN AND BODY
Posted on May 2, 2020 at 11:57 AM |
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THE ACTION BETWEEN BRAIN
AND BODY THE BODY BUILT THE BRAIN: BUT NOW
THE BRAIN IS LEARNING HOW TO BUILD THE BODY: THE ACTION BETWEEN BRAIN AND BODY
IS GOING TO BE ONE OF RECIPROCAL INTERCHANGE. DESIRE is the infusing principle of individual growth. It is
the factor by which our bodies have been built; first of all the lower or
inferior parts of our bodies have attained form and power, and finally other
and higher parts; and last the brain, which is the machine that investigates the
desires and generates the thought that assists in executing them. The importance of desire can never be overestimated. As the
brain strengthens we get a better idea of desire, and our respect, yes, our
veneration for it increases constantly. It is the propelling power within the
man, and the brain is its interpreter; and thought is its means of
communication with the external world. Man is the culmination of all the lives that existed before
him: he is the sum-total of all the previous growth on the planet, whether
impressed in mineral, vegetable or animal forms of life. He is the complete
compendium of all the lives that ever existed; and he has reached his high
position through the medium of that impelling impulse which underlies every
manifestation of life; that impulse we think of so seldom, analyze so little,
look at so critically when we attempt to give it a partial analysis, and in many instances condemn as unnecessary and even unholy. "Crush out your desires," says the voice of
ignorance that runs through every class of society; not knowing that to crush
out desire is to crush out life. But desire has never been crushed out. It has advanced
steadily toward its own fulfillment, in spite of the misguided intelligence that
could not comprehend its mission. Desire instead of being crushed by the
half-formed intelligence of past times, has gone on in its efforts and
developed the intellect until the time has arrived when the intellect perceives
the mighty mission of desire and begins to attach the valuation to it that it
deserves. This investigation of desire is the beginning of man's
conscious or reasoning life. It marks his ascension from the animal or physical
to the mental plane; the plane where we shall soon perceive that all things are
mental, and from which we shall speak a new tongue never spoken before in all
the world; a language from which all helplessness and all disposition to lean
has disappeared; a language so full of strength that its every word is
creative; a language which endows desire with the power that belongs to it; and
which proclaims this power abroad, until the entire race feels that it is no
longer weak and helpless, but that the force within itself as expressed in
desire is a sufficient guarantee, that what it wants to be it will be, and that
what it wants to do it will do. Desire gratified has all along built the brain, and the brain
has built the body; so that at this time the body is the brain's tool; its
medium of communication with that which is outside of itself; it is the one
necessity without which neither desire nor thought has any need of existence. The body is one; it comprises the desire, and the
intelligence that recognizes the desire. It is complete in its oneness. It is
not only the home of the "I," but it is the "I" itself. Once it was believed that the soul or spirit was some
intangible thing that permeated the body, but could do even better without the
body than with it. Mental Science proclaims a different thing from this. It
teaches that man on his present plane has no use for any kind of power but that
which the body generates, and which is first expressed in thought, and
afterward in action. It does not deny the existence of a spirit that lives
after the visible body dies; it has a theory of its own concerning this matter
which will be explained in a later section. But while not denying the existence
of soul or spirit, it does deny the use of yielding up the body, ignoring our
present lives, for the sake of magnifying the spirit. Mental Science, which is
another name for common-sense, centers its hope on the body because the body is
ours now, and its uses are manifested to us every hour of the present time. In the face of the whole world's belief to the contrary, I am
going to state as the most potent fact of the age that the body is all there is
of man. If he has a spirit that lives after him, it is a part of his body here
on earth, and the seeming two are really one; they are both body. All there is
of a man is body. If there is a spirit—which I believe though I cannot prove—
then it has been created by the body and is detached from the body at death,
because it is a substance so fine and volatile that it cannot help but ascend;
the grave cannot hold it, for it is thought. It is the complete thought-life of
the man or woman; the record of all the thought his or her brain ever created. The reason I attach so much importance to the body, and so
comparatively little importance to the soul or spirit, is because I know if
there is a soul or spirit that survives the body, that we shall find it all
right when we come to the need of an acquaintance with it. In the meantime it
is proving a ruinous thing to the body to attempt to live in the spirit until
we can no longer live in the body. We must get better acquainted with our bodies; greater
knowledge of them and their wonderful, though undeveloped, powers is all we
need in order to come into the thought that will conquer disease, old age and
death. We have been traveling death-ward because we imagined that we had to. We thought the body was a weak, destructible thing, that
could not aid us in our effort to attain everlasting life; but, on the
contrary, that it retarded us, and that our only hope lay in the power of our
soul or spirit to escape from it. It is this undervaluation of the body that has destroyed it;
it is the postponement of the life force—desire; the putting it off to some
future time, ahead of our present lives, that has impoverished these present
lives and that is responsible for all the weakness they exhibit. Man has
attempted to live two lives at once, and has thereby virtually lost both. I am
quite sure that the heaven of the future he has built for himself in his
imagination has done his soul or spirit no good, while it has done his body
great harm. It surely seems to be the proper thing for a man to live one
life at a time; and it also seems a sensible thing that the life he ought to
lead is his present life. To one acquainted with the mighty power of
concentration there can be no doubt about this, and I state boldly that the
effort made for the salvation of the soul is ruinous to the welfare of the
body. Again, I say that so far as we are concerned while in this
world, the body is of infinitely greater importance than the soul. There is
nothing of which we can form an idea that will compare with its value. Its uses
are legion, and its power to work out happiness for us is far beyond our
present ability to conceive of. And the world knows this, in a way, at this time, though it
does not know that it knows it. "The body is of little worth," it
says, and then it goes ahead and builds magnificent palaces for it to live in,
while thousands of workshops are devoted to the manufacture of clothing and
adornments for it. Here is nature speaking above the world's accepted beliefs,
and making itself heard through the din of ignorance, as it howls out its
reproaches and threats. The world's uneducated beliefs keep crying out
"Soul!" "Soul!" but the world itself holds fast to the
body, and cares not one fig for the soul. The body carries the stamp of the
world's wisdom; the world in which the principle of desire has manifested
itself the whole length of its chain of growth, from the atom to man. This idea of the soul and a future life may be called a
recent invention of man's brain. So far as I can ascertain, the history of the
very early men shows nothing of it. They did not talk of their souls. All their
consideration was of their bodies, and all their hopes and desires, pointed to
bodily salvation. It was only as the ages passed away, and bodily salvation was
not achieved, that men began to talk of the body being dual, and making an
unseen part to it that survived the death of the body, and passed on to a new
condition, where it was claimed that immortal life was a fixed fact. The race came to this conclusion in the natural process of
its growth. The animal man was verging into the reasoning man; the man was
becoming more brain and less body; his body was weakening as his brain
strengthened, and life began to grow shorter with him. This seems strange, but
it is easily accounted for. The body builds the brain; the time is coming when
the brain will be intelligent enough to reciprocate by building a better body;
but in the earlier part of this transaction, the brain, while it absorbed the
forces heretofore given to the body, required ages of growth before it became
intelligent enough to understand the situation. It was growing and increasing
in power, unconsciously to itself; and unconsciously to the body. All that was
known about it was that life grew shorter and weaker as the brain grew stronger
and more forceful; diseases multiplied, and the surrounding conditions of man
became more distasteful. Instead of becoming happier and healthier, he became
more unhappy and discontented. From the foregoing a glimpse of nature's way of doing things
may be observed. The man was nearly all animal at first. He became less animal
as his brain developed, and his brain kept developing more and more in
proportion as he thought more. He grew to be less animal and more mental, and
his body registered the fact. This change has been constantly going on, and is
still going on. The brain is being built at the expense of the body. But this
need not continue any longer, and why? Because the brain is now sufficiently intelligent to know
that, no matter how much of the bodily forces it may consume, it can generate a
power that will return to the body all the force it draws from it, and more.
And this power it gives back to the body in the form of intelligent thought.
And here is the origin of Mental Science—the science of mind unfoldment. All things come in the line of growth. Man's brain was being
built without his knowing what was going on within him; the coming era will be
marked chiefly by the fact that man will have achieved this knowledge
concerning the relation of his brain to his body, or his thought to his body;
for it is thought generated by the brain that will eventually make the
explanation that will unite the two—brain and body—in an endless circuit, from
which the life forces will cease to trail off and be lost, as they now trail
off and are lost; and when this condition comes, disease, old age and death
will cease upon our planet. I have said that the idea of a soul and an existence after
this life is over seems to have been of somewhat recent date. We find no
reference to it in the Old Testament. We have accounts in the Old Testament of
men who lived for hundreds of years, and who evidently looked forward to the
time when death should be conquered in this world. They did not die, because
their lives were broken by the mental division of themselves that separated
them into body and soul. And yet they would not have conquered death upon the
earth, even if they never made this separation. Something more was needed to
achieve the conquest of death than the continuance of the animal lives which
they represented. |
BELIEFS: BOTH FIXED AND UNFIXED
Posted on May 2, 2020 at 10:36 AM |
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BELIEFS: BOTH FIXED AND UNFIXED I NOW leave it to the
reader to say whether death is a necessity of our organization, or a desirable
thing, since spirit and matter are not two separate substances; and I will
return to again consider what seems to be the spirit forms described so
frequently by Spiritualists, and seen by thousands of people. Our bodies are the
condensed forms of our thoughts, or our beliefs. Thought and belief are in some
degree synonymous; both are forms of recognition; both are mental expressions.
A thought seems not to have the fixed character of a belief; but it may become
a belief, and in doing so it will take its place among other fixed beliefs, and
be a part of the visible body. Belief is simply thought that becomes fixed. The
body is thought, but it is thought that is fixed; thought whose correctness is
not questioned, and (on the mental plane, where we do really exist, whether we
are aware of it or not,) becomes visible. Fixed thought is belief; and belief
is visible thought expressed in a thousand different forms, each form being its
own individual recognition of the possibilities contained in the Law of Being. Thought—before it
becomes fixed in belief—is invisible to our undeveloped perceptions; it is a
reality, though intangible, just as the perfume of flowers and many other
ethereal substances, which we are not able to perceive except by their effects. And
yet the power to see these fine substances is latent among the undiscovered
possibilities that will some time awaken within us. Even now we get occasional
evidences of their existence, when we are off our guard against everything but
the commonplace and orthodox attainments of the present. We sometimes forget
that we believe in nothing but what we call "established facts," and
in these moments of forgetfulness, it may be that some mighty power within us
steals a march on us, and shows itself in something unexpected to, and even
unacceptable by, our "sober senses." Then it is not
impossible that the thought which has so far mastered us as to render us in a
measure unconscious of what we are thinking, and watchful of the action of our
mind, should suddenly appear before us in the objective. It is a living thing;
each atom of its frail being is transfused by the Law. For the time being, it
actually has an individuality of its own; an individuality quite negative,
however, to that of its creator, myself, for instance, and holding its
objective form in ready obedience to my caprice. This is the real
condition: I have been in a reverie, a careless state of mind, when my thoughts
were shaping themselves uncontrolled by my will. My will, which is my ego,
being off guard, there is a tendency to disintegration in my body—the sum of my
fixed beliefs. Then, stray thoughts, beliefs which are not fixed, may start up
from the careless or indolent brain, and actually become sufficiently fixed to
be visible. In becoming thus partially fixed, they draw upon the fixed beliefs
(my body), which for a time are in a measure unfixed. And here we have the
double presence, the second party, which may either be an exact resemblance of
ourselves, or the resemblance of some picture that exists, or has existed, at
some previous time in the mind. That
thoughts are things is a fact that cannot be disputed. We might as well say
that ether did not exist, because it is invisible, as to say that thought is
nothing because it is not seen under ordinary conditions. There is no nothing.
Wherever the Law of Attraction is recognized, even in the feeblest manner,
there, though unseen, exists the form of that recognition. Recognition is form.
Recognition is the making visible of the Law. The Law is the only thing that
can be recognized. It may be recognized in weakness or in strength; but
wherever it is recognized, no matter whether the recognition is weak or strong,
a manifestation of it is inevitable. Whether this explanation
will apply to every phase of spirit materialization or not, I cannot say. Nor
have I given it in the hope that it will do so; for there is no pleasanter
thought to me than that our loved and dead do really live after they have left
this sphere, and can return to us again. Nor does the fact that
our thoughts may take shapes which— under certain conditions— become objective
to us, invalidate the claim of Spiritualism, that the spirits of the dead can
return and take form. My real object in saying
what I have said is to prove to the reader what I know to be true; that there
is no nothing; and that thoughts are things. I also wish to establish the fact
that the human mind is an unprospected field, and that no one has even the
faintest idea of its latent powers. In the matter of being
lifted from the floor, to which I alluded a few pages back, in connection with
other Spiritualistic phenomena, I wish to say that this, too, may be, and is, a power that belongs to man; one
that he can exercise at will when he comes to know more of himself and his
relation to the Law of his being. |
FROM SELFISHNESS TO SELF-HOOD (aka: SELF-FULLNESS)
Posted on May 2, 2020 at 10:33 AM |
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FROM SELFISHNESS TO SELF-HOOD (aka:
SELF-FULLNESS) IN
proportion as we become self-centered by a recognition of the great importance
of the "I," we come under the principle of attraction where our own
comes to us. What is our own? Everything that we desire or aspire to in the
process of true advancement. We often think we desire things that we do not
really desire. What we do truly desire is happiness. Happiness is the ultimate
of our every aspiration; it is the constant craving of the spirit of growth
within us; it is the reaching out of the spirit of growth for a better
recognition of its own power. Suppose
we desire that someone may die, who stands between us and an inheritance. This
intermediate desire has nothing to do with the spirit of life within us; this
spirit simply points to happiness; it does not suggest methods for attaining
it; this suggestion comes from the intelligence of the person, and is liable to
make mistakes—does often make mistakes—and has no other way of learning how to
conform itself to the Principle of Attraction that holds the universe together
than by making mistakes. The
true desire, that is always pushing its way into the observation of the
individual, is really the very essence of love, always seeking greater
expression and always aggregating to itself greater power. Understanding
at last that desire is the infusing spirit in man, it is plain to see that it
is of greater importance than we ever before imagined, and that, instead of
attempting to crush it out of our organizations, where it is really the breath
of our lives, we must learn to direct it properly. I
wish to emphasize this point of holding for self. I wish to do so because the
race has been filled full of false ideas regarding the virtue of
self-abnegation. Self-abnegation,
or self-denial, is the most deadly and paralyzing mistake ever made. It is the
letting go of one's hold on the Life Principle, abandoning all one has gained
in his previous growth through the ages, and drifting backward, as nearly as
one can do so, into nothingness; and every bit of undue or unconsidered
concession to the opinions of others partakes of the nature of self-abnegation,
and should be promptly stopped. A man should ask himself if he has not as much
right to his self-hood as another, and when he answers this question
affirmatively, as he cannot help doing, then he should stand for himself boldly
and manfully. It
may at first thought seem that men do, even now, hold for themselves with great
firmness, but this is not so. The very opposite is so marked among the people
that Emerson speaks of society as "a mush of concession." There is so
little of true self-holding in the world that, where one meets a really
individualized man or woman, it is an event never to be forgotten. The
opinion of the world is worthless. The majority of the people have no opinions
of their own, but have simply accepted those that have been thrust upon them.
In this way we are saddled with the beliefs of men ages dead, whose opportunity
of knowing truth was a thousand times inferior to our own. Is it any wonder
that such utterly negative creatures die? They ought to die. Life and its
tremendous mission, involving such thought and such effort as they have never
imagined, are not for them. The grappling hook of divine purpose passes through
them as if they were made of jelly. They afford not the slightest obstruction
to it. It is all self-abnegation with them, though partly of an unconscious
character. Unconscious
self-abnegation, or the lack of intelligent self-assertion, is the bane of
humanity at this time. The
belief in self-abnegation comes from the awakening intelligence that, in
looking back, sees only the horrors of animal selfishness, and does not look
forward to where this same selfishness is modified by justice, and through this
modification can become the very essence of true manhood and womanhood. The
child is not polite. It grabs its toys and holds them firmly away from the
little friend who has come to visit it. Later on it will value the happiness of
its little friend more than it values the toys, and then it will give them up
gladly. Nor will this giving be in the spirit of self-abnegation. It will be
because the giving yields more happiness to self than the withholding. Self is
forever at the bottom of all things, as it should be, for self is the
individual center, and the change from selfishness to self-hood, which is
selfishness lifted to a higher plane, will come through a growing infusion of
the love principle in the race—an infusion that makes the happiness of others
our dearest happiness. All
of this comes under the head of evolution, and there is no logical
interpretation of humanity except by the evolutionary theory; but even the most
timid sticklers for Biblical authority need not be afraid of it. Darwin never
taught the evolutionary theory half so strongly as the Bible teaches it. I
have now shown the selfishness of the animal as changed to self-hood in the man,
by man's constantly increasing recognition of the Principle of Attraction
within him. It must be remembered that this Principle of Attraction,
in its true essence, is pure love. As he recognizes more of the Principle of
Attraction, his power to love increases. Love always comes from a more thorough
recognition of the infusing Life
Principle, and will keep on increasing as this recognition keeps on
growing. All this growth of the recognition of the Principle of Attraction is
tending in the direction of universal brotherhood, which means a state of the
sweetest harmony among the people, a condition of high and mighty and living
restfulness, in which the seeds of new faculties, now lying dormant in the
human brain, will take root and grow into undreamed power. As
all our past unconscious growing has been from the basis of self, so will our
future growing be from the same basis, for there is no other basis of growth. Harmony,
universal intelligence, is not achieved by individual concession or
self-abnegation, but by the assertion of self under the influence of the
ever-growing idea that he who asserts self asserts the divinest of all possible
power in humanity. To deny self is to deny this power in humanity, and thus to
make as nothing—so far as such a thing is possible the work of
organization—that work which men have called the creation. Therefore, I say,
stand by self, for in so doing you are standing for the Life Principle; you are
standing for just as much of the Life Principle as you can recognize; and by
holding firmly to this position, you will recognize more, until it will fill
you and overflow in one broad and deep stream of life, that will embrace every
living soul. And this will be your true self flowing forth. The same self that
flowed forth in the animal in getting the most good will, by reason of your
increased intelligence, now flow forth in doing
the most good; but the doing shall also be the getting. And
thus the competitive systems of business, which are all animal in their origin,
and all aim at getting the most good, are even now in process of becoming
emulative systems, wherein each will try to excel the other in doing the most
good. On
its own plane, competition is right. It is the unchecked development of
individuality, and individuality is the one jewel above all price. When
competition has ripened into emulation, heaven will be here, and that, too,
without one particle of concession from any soul. Concession,
self-denial, self-abnegation, is ruinous. It is the denial of our own
individuality; it is the direct road to nothingness; it is the resignation of
that which alone makes the man or gives him, as a factor of any worth, to the
world. An ignorant man, standing firmly on his self-hood, uneducated as yet in a
true sense of justice, may be a very disagreeable member of society; but his
position denotes strength, and there is hope of his learning; but the man who
has entirely dropped down from the claims of self, who has resigned his
individuality—who is he? A mere vagabond—listless, hopeless—a drifting scum,
awaiting removal from human sight. I
have made the foregoing points with a purpose, and a strong purpose. The person
who is afraid to stand for himself and to declare himself will always be looked
upon as weak. Looking
within, you may perceive the self there, and you may conclude that it is a very
selfish thing, a thing to be thrown overboard, while on bended knees you beg
for a nobler self. This nobler self you are begging for is the very self you
are misjudging. There is nothing the matter with you, except that your dull
intelligence fails to recognize this beautiful vitality which is individualized
within you. This fact explains why all religions are made to hang on the one
word "believe," and why Jesus said, "When you pray, believe that
you receive, and you shall have"—showing that all truth is within, and
that all a man has to do is to believe it. Prayer
is merely desire, or aspiration. We are asking or praying with every breath we
draw. "Prayer is the soul's sincere desire, unuttered or expressed."
It is a tentacle of the Life Principle within us going out in search of what it
wants. And prayer is answered from within. I
am now treating of the growth of the man, and not of the conditions he shall
inaugurate afterwards. A man once builded in the knowledge of himself and of
the power within him, conditions then build themselves about him; conditions
become responsive to his own strength, even as they are now responsive to his
own weakness. To
build institutions is not the first thing to be thought of. Institutions will
seem to build themselves, after true men and women are built, and all by a
natural law—the Principle of Attraction. Every
thought or belief in this Principle carries us more fully within the power of
it; and in this condition our own comes to us. Everything that is related to
our peculiar faculty, whether near or far, will come to us in acknowledgement
of our ownership. In
man's operations from the central point or a basis of self, he is entitled to
what he wants. And he need not beg for what he wants; it is his own under the
Law of Attraction by inalienable right, and unless he take it as his own, he
will never build his life up in the strength of true manhood. All
through the period of his unconscious growth, he took; he did not beg. He did
this regardless of his fellows. What he took represented to him his highest
ideal of happiness. Now his ideal is enlarged; it is so greatly enlarged that
it raises him quite out of the physical realm into the intellectual one, and
what he demands as essential to his happiness is the knowledge that will secure
him health, strength and beauty. Of
these things he may demand what he will, and no one will be robbed; for he is
now in the high place where the supply is equal to the demand, and where he is
getting more and more into harmony with the Principle of Attraction, where his
own comes to him because it is related to his needs. Therefore, men need not
beg. A true analysis of things past and present will show us that there never
was a beggar on earth until man came, and that beggars were never needed,
neither were meant to have existence. To
get the things he needs in the present transitional stage from animal to human,
each human being is forced to become as aggressive as any warrior. Everything
he attempts to take out of the mental world, the world of unorganized
intelligence, is denied him, and and its very existence disputed by a thousand
race beliefs that rise up before him and threaten him with destruction. This
fight for mastery, being at this time entirely in the realm of the intellect,
we must begin, not by begging our way, but by claiming it. Discard every
thought of humility; make a statement of what you want, and hold it as your
due. Take this one fact into consideration, that man has no God-given place in
the universe, and no natural sphere, except that which he has wrested from the
universe by his own intelligent demands. Remember above all things, that man is man-made, and not
God-made. Individuality is
of such tremendous importance that we are not trying to lose it in God. We are
trying to bring God forth and establish Him in these personalities. I speak the
word "God" as if I accepted it in its present meaning, which I do
not, although it is sometimes very convenient to use. Mental
Science, unlike Christian Science, believes in the present and in the personal,
the visible and audible. It believes in the evolution of the Life Principle
into the personal and the present, through the intelligent recognition of men
and women, and it is in this way we will banish disease and death and establish
heaven on earth—for the more of the Life Principle a man recognizes in himself,
the stronger and more positive he is; and thus will disease and death be
overcome, for they are simply the negations or denial of man's power to
conquer. They are nothing in themselves, and have no power, except the power
men confer upon them by believing in them; and as men believe in their own
self-hood more and recognize the God-hood of self-hood, the fear of disease and
death will be effaced, and life, with health and happiness, will become the
heritage of the race instead. I
say to every human being—assert your desires and prove your noble nature. The
desire, which is the voice of life in you, does not include any methods your
brain may suggest as being the right way to attain the desire. The desire is
the essence of your being, and it asks for happiness, and nothing less. It will
be your individual mistake, and not the mistake of the vital principle, if you
seek happiness by methods that will wrong others. Therefore, as we are still so
ignorant, the proper thing to do is to ask for happiness simply, or rather to
claim happiness as our right. Of course, every idea of
happiness includes ideas of health, strength and beauty, and it is these things
that make the real man. After man is established in such glorious health,
strength and beauty as makes every moment of his life a joy to him, he may then
turn his thoughts outward towards the building of new and better conditions for
himself and fellows; for man is the Builder, and when he has built himself, he
will begin to build externally in a stronger way—yes, in a thousand stronger
ways, for man's sphere is here on earth, and he will build outward from the
earth, until the space between the planets will show forth the wonders of his
inventions and discoveries. Once
more I say—stand by self. Self is not a sinful or dreadful thing. It is the
glorious basis of everything that is visible in the universe. In each
individual thing, whether crystal, tree, animal or man, it is the wresting from
negative by more positive expression that brings the mastery. Therefore, let no
one be horrified because I have rescued self-hood from the mistakes that have so
long overlain it. The
truth seeker is the image breaker,
and no one need be grieved to see his pet hobbies fall before him. It is time
they all fell. It is time for us to turn our backs on the past and accept the
instruction given to Lot's wife, never to look behind; for now that the
dreadful old charnel houses where we have been entombed alive for such a long
time are falling, we must escape from them forthwith. From
now on, I ask every seeker after the truth to keep up the investigation of
self; and when by much thinking, he learns to stand up for it, and to hold it
sacredly above the old-time beliefs that have made a devil out of it and prepared
a hell for its future reception, he will begin to realize a strength he had
never dreamed of before. Therefore, I say—stand by self. Magnify it if
possible; but, indeed, no one can magnify it, for no one's conception of it can
do it justice. But a person can magnify his ideas of it, and thus conquer the
race beliefs concerning it. And
this is the battle that will have to be fought by the truth seeker. The battle
is between the new truth that Mental Science brings and the old crucifying
belief born of an age of rankest ignorance, that has so long held the people in
darkness concerning their own strength and worth. No one can stand too strongly
for the right. Each one of us should make his or her own statement of personal
goodness and power, and reiterate it in the face of every old-world belief as
rapidly as it shall confront them. He or she should say, "I am here for
myself, to build myself up in health, strength and beauty, by claiming my own.
Nothing is too good for me. I claim the best and I shall get it." |
The Study of Man
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THE STUDY OF MAN A FEW men have cherished life-long
visions of cheating death, though without that belief in their hopes that would
prompt them to search for a continuance of life in a way likely to lead to the
desired result. There have been many Ponce de Leons in the world. History is strewed thick with them.
Writers have embodied their hopes, half disguised, in many writings.
Bulwer-Lytton, Hawthorne and others I can recall. Elixirs have been concocted
as life protractors, and have sold readily until found to be failures. There
has been more than one Brown Sequard who deceived others by being honestly
deceived himself. But before all these comparatively
modern searchers for the fountain of perpetual youth, there existed in the long
past many men, who believed with all their minds that the time would come when
the race would conquer death. The thought was the goal to all their hopes. They
did not seem to expect this conquest to happen in their time, but they believed
that the race was gradually growing toward a period when it could be done. Has the Bible student observed that
the Old Testament does not treat of the soul of man? If it does, I have not
found it out, either from my own reading or from my talk with other Bible
students. From one end of it to the other it seems to consider man in the light
of a bodily creature, as if his life were purely external, and related to the
external world alone; in other words, as if man had no soul, but looked forward
to the time when he would conquer death in the body. If this is true, it seems
astonishing, in the light of present knowledge, that these prophets of the old
time should have so correctly predicted the course that future events would
take. But they were natural men; they were at one with the law of growth—the
Principle of Attraction—as it manifested itself in them. They were simply a
part of Nature, like the trees and animals; and it was Nature itself that shone
through their sayings, and prophesied its own power when men should have
ripened to an understanding of them. This is the true explanation
concerning the power of those old seers to predict coming events. They were in
the direct line of growth, and the growth principle made utterance through
them. They did not talk of their souls; at least, it is my belief that they did
not. They seemed to be unconscious of their souls, even if they possessed them.
They did not project their thoughts and hopes into another sphere beyond and
outside of the present world; the full force of their entire being was centered
in the world in which they lived; and what was the result? Why this—they lived hundreds of
years here in strength and health. I know how the claim to longevity
as related of these men in the Old Testament is now scouted and rejected by
persons who consider themselves thinkers; but if these thinkers would think
farther on the subject, they would see no folly in accepting the statement as
recorded. For my part, I perceive the
probability that these accounts are true; and I perceive it—not because the
Bible has recorded it, but because the study of evolution shows the possibility
of it, and, indeed, confirms the fact that this strange phenomenon was one of
the natural periods of growth through which the race would necessarily pass. It
begins to be
seen that there
are two distinctly marked periods
in the hist ory of Man. One of these periods I call the period of his
unconscious growth, and the other period that of his conscious growth. Man has ascended from the forms of
life that lie below him, and, though he stands at the head of them, he is
nevertheless composed of the same material that they are, and partakes of their
nature. The animals and plants all belong
to the unconscious plane of life; and man, so long as he remains in his
condition of animal-hood, belongs to this plane also. It is only recently that
man is beginning to emerge from this plane, and step forth into the plane of
conscious existence, where his deviation from his previous condition of
animal-hood is showing forth in an increased intelligence, so marked as to
change the entire basis of his life from physical to mental. The difference between conscious
life, and life on the unconscious plane, is in the use of the reasoning powers.
On the unconscious plane men do not reason to any great extent. It is this fact
that gives us the right to call them unconscious; and the word
"unconscious," as I use it, only relates to their power, or lack of
power, to examine the operation of their own minds as the law of growth
operates in them. In one sense all life is conscious;
but in the sense I speak of there is a growth which proceeds without being
observed by the person or persons in whom it is going on. This is what I call
growth on the unconscious plane. A man grows; he lives
his allotted number of years and dies; he may have been a thinker on many
subjects, and may have brought forth great truths, but until he turns his
attention to himself—to the study of man, to the law of growth as it proceeds
in his own body, he will not have ascended to what I call the conscious plane
of life. This conscious plane is that plane
where the man no longer lives the vegetable life of his predecessors, but uses
his reasoning powers to the extent of their development, and from the animal
stage of life on to the thinking, reasoning stage; and this ascent may not only
be called an ascent from unconscious to conscious life, but from a condition of
ignorance to one of intelligence; from animal to human; from physical to
mental. Life on the unconscious
plane, the plane where man is ignorant of himself and his powers, may fitly be
called the vegetable plane. It is true that even on this plane
a man has advanced a long way above the vegetable, but he is still under what
he calls the law of heredity, which holds him in the path his fathers trod, and
which he accepts as an inevitable necessity, just as the vegetable does. This
feature of growth marks the unconscious plane—the unreasoning or ignorant
plane; the plane where men accept things as they find them, without examining
themselves to discover whether they have not the power within themselves to
project entirely new conditions, which shall forever obliterate the old ones. Ascension – the change
from unconscious to conscious life. On the unconscious or comparatively
unthinking plane, man is stationary and helpless as compared with man when he
has ascended to the conscious or reasoning plane. On the former plane he
accepts his condition as final, or nearly so. It is true that he sees some
chance of improvement now and then, and tries to develop this chance. In this
way there has been a slow but sure upward movement, from the unconscious or
ignorant plane to the conscious or intelligent plane; so that, as the ages have
passed, the race has kept slowly becoming more intelligent, until there comes
to be among its numbers a few who perceive that the source of all power lies
embodied in man himself, and that the great study by which race advancement may
be quickened a hundred-fold is the study of man. The study of man has begun, and as
it proceeds the change from unconscious to conscious life proceeds. The condition
of the animal man is no longer such a compact and formidable state of ignorance
as it once was; it is being broken into by the new thought of the few
independent thinkers, who are investigating themselves and their wonderful
powers, and whose freshly acquired knowledge is filtering down among the
masses, where it promises to make great changes in the thoughts and beliefs of
the unconscious multitude. The conscious life into
which we are entering by the simple unfoldment of our reasoning faculties is called
the mental life. And all nature, everything, is on
its way upward from the unconscious or animal plane to the conscious or mental
plane. In strict truth, the animal or
unconscious plane is mental also, the same as the conscious plane; but it is a
more ignorant form of mentality than the high, reasoning, or conscious plane.
The word "mental" is as applicable to one plane as the other. All the
expressions of life from low to high are mental, as I have constantly
endeavored to prove to the reader; and the difference I am attempting to
explain exists only in the quality of the mentality, as manifested by different
creatures on different planes of development. The transposition from what is
called the physical forms of life to the mental forms of life is in the
different degrees of intelligence that the creatures on the different planes
are capable of showing forth. It is on this account that Mental Science makes
the statement that "all is mind"; mind in a state of unconsciousness
with regard to itself, and mind with sufficient knowledge to be conscious of
itself and the faculties it possesses. Therefore, the difference between
conscious life and unconscious life is a difference in the degrees of
intelligence manifested between different classes of beings. Man in his early stages of growth
makes a closer approach to the conscious state than the animals below him in
development. Thus the human being, even in his most savage state, is more
conscious of himself and his power than the monkeys or other animals. All is mind, of which every
creature and plant from the lowest form of life up to the most gifted human
being is a mental expression, and the form that each creature or plant shows
forth marks the degree of its mentality. Each creature or plant, no matter how
small and inferior, has aspirations or desires that reach higher than its
present conditions. These aspirations or desires ascend higher than the
environment of its life will permit it to realize in the undeveloped state of
its intelligence; so the mere fact of the existence of these aspirations or
desires calls for a higher grade of creatures in which to become embodied. They
form a basis of life, as it were, or serve as a demand upon nature for the next
higher type, which shall show forth more intelligence than the former one; and
thus the chain of being is preserved, even though the forms of being are always
changing. And so evolution proceeds. I will repeat this idea, which I
consider very important, as showing the march of mind as expressed in desire. Every sane desire of every creature
is finally attained. If this attainment fails to show forth in the creature
itself, it goes on to development in some other ego. In the scale of evolution
it is the un-gratified desire of the lower creature that produces another grade
of creature higher than itself—so mighty is desire, and so unerring is the
fulfillment. It is the desire for food in the
first jelly-like forms of life that prompts their development on a higher
plane. These little forms of translucent jelly, having neither hands nor feet
nor mouth nor eyes, are nevertheless attracted to some tiny bit of food
floating in the water, about which they put forth parts of themselves until the
object is enveloped within their bodies. After the nutriment in the food has
been absorbed, the body unfolds and lets the residue pass out. Here is the
beginning of hands and feet and eyes and ears and a brain and a digestive
system. This development was by desire; desire for food. The desire for food
being gratified led to a thousand other desires; the number and greatness of
desires kept increasing, and the higher grades of life increased in consequence
until man came. The increase of desires in the creature added link after link
to the chain of being from the atom to the man. And what is man but a bundle of
desires? His desires are much more numerous and far reaching than those of any
of his predecessors. And as he is the culmination of all the desires of all his
predecessors, not one single desire of which has failed to be gratified, he has
a perfect right to believe that his own desires, great as they are getting to
be, will be gratified also. It is evident that desire is the
mainspring of all growth. It is also evident that no desire can exist that
cannot be met by the object desired; and thus a new marriage is formed; new
desires are begotten, and growth proceeds. |
The Teachings of Ron Amitron
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... Something about Gerardus ... Gerardus Everardus Tros was born in the City of Hoorn, The Netherlands
on Dec. 25/1927. His education was partly interrupted because of the
German occupation. Self study and evening classes helped to overcome
this lack. His writing illustrates a profound intuitive perspective of
the nature of humanity and it creates a fresh insight into the so
illusive purpose of human existence. For about fifteen years, Gerardus
and his second wife Ellen, lived in their RV and traveled in the U.S.A.
and Canada. Presently he lives by himself in the City of Penticton, B.C.
Canada. He regards himself as an ordinary man with some unusual
abilities. These pages contain his work of the last 30 years and it is
available without charge. Many people appreciate his material and regard
it as a source of metaphysical knowledge and wisdom. He smilingly nods
his head and says: that's part of what I came to do. My writing contains thirty years of thoughts expressed in a manner that makes sense to Me.When my thoughts make sense to others - they all have received a beautiful Bonus. It will help all of us for we are One. ...........and life goes on. |
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